He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
- Isiah 40: 29-31
Hehe I know this clock doesn't fit in with the blackwhitegrey theme...but I couldn't resist...
Friday, 16 November 2007
HEY. It's like they read my mind and then wrote this song.
Be My Escape - Relient K
I’ve given up on giving up slowly I’m blending in so you won’t even know me Apart from this whole world that shares my fate This one last bullet you mention It’s my one last shot at redemption Cause I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity And I’ve been locked inside that house All the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out And that might be the death of me And even though there’s no way of knowing Where to go I promise I’m going because
I gotta get out of here I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake I gotta get out of here And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape
I’ve given up on doing this alone now Guess I failed and I’m ready to be shown how You told me the way and now I’m trying to get there And this life sentence that I’m serving I admit that I’m every bit deserving But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity And I’ve been locked inside that house All the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out And that might be the death of me And even though there’s no way of knowing Where to go I promise I’m going because
I gotta get out of here Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake (yeah) I gotta get out of here And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape
I am a hostage to my own humanity Self-detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made And all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me But I can’t ask you to give what you already gave.
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity And I’ve been locked inside that house All the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out That might be the death of me And even though there’s no way of knowing Where to go I promise I’m going because
I gotta get out of here I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake I gotta get out of here And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape.
Actually Relient K used to be a Christian band. There are still Christian undertones in their lyrics. (: You can look at many of their songs as being addressed to God.
I'm procrastinating. I need to do math tuition homework.
I'm tired, mostly. I think I'm really unfit 'cause my thighs are aching after painting the banner for SL yesterday. D: I mean, why my thighs!
I must try not to be so sad/emo. It's not like I have a right to be. Those starving kids in Africa/India/other countries have a right to be emo. I don't.
It's too late, to apologise I said it's too late,
Apologise by One Republic. Awesome song. Sounds great on the piano too, 'cause the bass clef is really low and the treble clef is really high so it sounds drama and emo. And the drums are so catchy.
And you said, Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you,
Mm I wonder what you were thinking when you said those things, did those things. Did it hurt you too? Were you too angry to care? Or maybe you were just frozen inside.
I guess I shall never know. It doesn't really matter anyway.
I'm holding on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground,
Apologise - One Republic
//EDIT: Tag Replies! I nearly forgot O:
Rayne: Yes, I think you're right. I feel so tired and weak, though. :C But thanks for being a pillar of support. Binkee: HAHA lol. Jaz says it makes me look stupid. D: Minyee: Why! D: I liked your blog. Minyee + short hair = ... Can't imagine it. The picture in my head looks like a bad cut-and-paste Photoshop job. Haha I hope you're having fun in Taiwan right now (: Jazzy: I shall relink...soon. xD LJ is cool. But I can't figure out how to code it ;_; Darrell: Luff ya too. [: <3 <3 I'll try. And yes I wanna see it too! :D
//EDIT 2
Quiz, because I feel like it.
1. Time of starting this? 7:41 PM
2. Were you named after anyone? Nope.
3. Do you wish on stars? More as a gesture, not because I really believe it will happen.
4. When did you last cry? If you don't know, you don't need to.
5. What is your favourite meat? Depends how it's cooked. Probably chicken and beef.
6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf? None, really.
7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? Yeah, I guess (:
8. Are you a daredevil? Only when I'm alone. xD You don't wanna know.
9. How do you release anger? I don't.
10.Where is your second home? My auntie's house. (I'm here now)
11. Do you trust others easily? Mm, too easily.
12. What was your favourite toy as a child? Little plastic animal figurines. (: I'd make pretend zoos.
13. What subject in school do you think is totally useless? Actually...none of them.
14. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Depends on who I'm interacting with. It's not a habit, though.
15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? Nope.
16. What do you look for in a guy/girl? Nice. That's most important.
17. Would you bungee jump? Maybe I would have when I was younger, but I'm less adventurous now. ):
18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? No, I tie them loose so I can slip them on and off (:
19. What’s your favourite ice cream flavour? Cookies and cream <3 I like Ben&Jerry's cookie dough flavour though.
20. What are your favourite colours? Um...I made a list a while ago...click here.
21. What is your least favourite thing? Uh, there are a lot.
22. What/Who do you miss most right now? I...skip this question.
23. What are you listening to right now? Bubbly by Colbie Caillat (clicky). <3 It starts in my toes and I crinkle my nose; wherever it goes, I'll always know that you make me smile, baby, stay for a while now; just take your time, wherever you go.
24. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Orange. Though green's my fave, but orange fits better.
25. What is the weather like right now? Quiet. Still. A bit stuffy.
26. Last person you talked to on the phone? My mum.
27. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Height.
28. How are you today? -shrugs-
29. Favourite drink? Bandung.
30. Favourite alcoholic drink? Too young.
31. Natural hair colour? Black, brown in sunlight.
32. Eye colour? Dark dark brown.
33. Wear contacts? No.
34. Siblings? Younger bro. He's eleven.
35. Favourite month? None really.
36. Favourite food? Chocolate, baked rice, takopochi, icecream, (Hawaiian) pizza, lots and lots of candy, etc.
37. Last movie you watched? -thinks hard- I think it was...Hairspray. I wanna watch Stardust )):
38. Favourite day of the year? I don't know. Nowadays I judge more on...what happens, not just a day in itself.
39. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out? I've never wanted to ask someone out, but yeah I'm shy around...some people.
40. Scary movies or happy endings? Happy happy happy.
41. Summer or winter? Winter. Snow. Skiing. <3
42. Hugs or kisses? Hugs!
43. What book / magazine are you reading? Newsweek. Hehh.
44. What’s on your mouse pad? I use my tablet. xD
45. What did you watch on TV last night? I haven't watched TV for ages. I like Animal Planet and National Geog, though.
46. Favourite Smell? The smell of books. You can smell it in the library.
47. Do you regret ever breaking up with someone? -shrugs-
I feel like I'm taken for granted by others. But I know it's just my ego telling me that.
I'm always smiley, aren't I? Truth is, I get upset/annoyed pretty easily. It's just that I'm good at keeping it in check. Something about me: I can't stop positive emotions from bubbling to the top and I can't help but bury negative emotions. I suppose that's good in a way.
Today I discovered a way to keep calm that works for me. When I'm angry/frustrated/hurt/upset etc I'll take a deep breath and imagine a bottle and then picture myself stuffing all the negative emotions into the bottle until I'm cool, calm and collected. It works.
My blog's turning into the blog of someone I know. Not surprising, since I think I'm turning into that person.
.t.y.i.n.g.s. says: mmhmm i avoid sad songs - grace says: haha i love them .t.y.i.n.g.s. says: not good, wont really help in cheering me up, for me - grace says: haha for me... - grace says: i don't really listen to cheer up - grace says: more to...i don't know - grace says: maybe i'm addicted to drama/trauma o_O .t.y.i.n.g.s. says: then i think you gotta break out of it?
Yeah. I need to snap out of it. But I'm so weak.
I'm doing it again, anyway. Now it's Everybody's Changing by Keane (I like their music style)
So little time Try to understand that I'm Trying to make a move just to stay in the game I try to stay awake and remember my name But everybody's changing, and I don't feel the same.
I feel so guilty. But it's not enough to motivate me to act.
And that makes me feel guilty too. But, of course, not enough to motivate me to act.
Three things about today.
1. I have a headache. 2. I cut my hair. Looks really different. Fringe. 3. Can't believe I'm so busy even when holidays have started. If anything I'm busier than I was in school. My mum says I overcommit.
My two current fave songs at the moment (there's a third - the one in the post below):
Zzyzx Rd. - Stone Sour (yes I like listening to emo songs by obscure artists. But really, it's such a beautiful/melancholy song. Plus, the electric guitar solo part is just awesome.)
I don't know how else to put this - it's taken me so long to do this I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight My muscles feel like a melee - body's curled in a u-shape I put on my best, but I'm still afraid Propped up by lies with promises - saving my place as life forgets Maybe it's time I saw the world I'm only here for a while - but patience is not my style And I'm so tired that I gotta go.
What am I supposed to hide now? What am I supposed to do? Did you really think I wouldn't see this through? Tell me I should stick around for you, tell me I could have it all I'm still too tired to care and I gotta go.
Happy Ending - Mika (he has such a gay voice but I love his music. This is probably my favourite song of his. It's certainly the saddest.)
Wake up in the morning Stumble on my life Can't get no love without sacrifice If anything should happen I guess I wish you well Mmm a little bit of heaven But a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I have ever told No hope or love or glory Happy ending's gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted And I'm wastin' everyday
This is the way you left me: I'm not pretending No hope, no love, no glory No happy ending
This is the way that we love: Like it's forever Then live the rest of our life But not together.
Tagreplies <3 Sarah - No, it's fine. I think I need a preacher, I've never been very close to my church teachers or friends. \: I don't know. I feel like I'm running out of faith. Minyee - Holidays! Hahahahaha...no. Let's see...I have to do Melbourne trip resource booklet...SL banner...Buckle banner/website/board...some animation project...my head's spinning. I feel so tired. I don't know, my blog is my punching bag of sorts I guess. I can imagine you with a diao expression right now. Rayne - Imissyou):
You took my hand, you showed me how You promised me you'd be around Uhuh, that's right
I took your words and I believed In everything you said to me Yeah huh, that's right
Because that's the way it was.
Why can't I just accept people for who they are?
"But don't you care that the Bible says homosexuality is wrong?" "It's okay in fiction." "What? No, that's not true!" "So how come there's so much killing in fiction then?"
We didn't argue any more. But I can't just step back and watch the poison.
But I wouldn't have known what to say next, anyway.
I'm no angel myself. My conscience shouts at me a lot, but I never listen.
I never denied I have flaws. I never denied I'm wrong a lot. I never denied sometimes I'm a hypocrite.
Why is it they won't believe those things of me?
I'm not perfect. Stop looking at me like that.
Because right now I'm just a wrecked bundle of emotions.
I guess it's my fault. I'm just too good at pretending.
I wish I could touch you again I wish I could still call you a friend I'd give anything
Why am I so fragile? Why can't I just, just move on? Why can't I trust? Why can't I surrender it all?
I can't stand myself.
I think my blog gets way too personal. Maybe I should consider password protecting it.
It's degenerating into a bunch of YouTube videos and rants.
The tears are threatening to come and to be honest I don't mind.
If someone said three years from now You'd be long gone I'd stand up and punch them out 'Cause they're all wrong I know better 'Cause you said forever And ever Who knew?
Listening to: Way Back Into Love from Music & Lyrics (this slightly stereotypical but HILARIOUS and sweet movie we watched during artcamp)
I've been living with a shadow overhead, I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed, I've been lonely for so long, Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on.
I found the sheet music (: http://words3music.100free.com/movies.html
What a beautiful song.
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine, I've been searching but I just don't see the signs, I know that it's out there, There's got to be something for my soul somewhere.
"Ahhh! There's a leaf in our pasta sauce!" "It's a bay leaf! It's SUPPOSED to be there!"
Paris has great food and great art. They are not created by the same people.
I have really nice seniors and really weird juniors.
There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
If I wasn't so tired I'd probably cry about _____ and ______. But camps leave me emotionally drained, I think.
All I want to do is find away back into love, I can't make it through without a way back into love, And if I open my heart to you, I'm hoping you'll show me what to do, And if you help me to start again, You know that I'll be there for you in the end.
I think people must get a surprise when they read my blog. Perhaps they go, "Wait, is this Grace? It can't be her, she's not like this in school."
"You're two-faced."
It's not an insult, it's true. Actually...no. It's not true. I have more faces than that. Faces that I definitely haven't shown anyone except myself before.
I love this song. Listened to it so many times before.
I'm listening from the other end, this time.
The music video makes me wanna cry.
How To Save A Life- The Fray
I admire this person so much for daring to do this (clickyplease).
I will admit, if you admit it It's harder than we both thought It's easier to fall apart Look where we are I can forgive it, I can't forget it You left me here with all these scars and you can't deny the hardest part I'm not in your arms
Spent the afternoon surfing YouTube and deviantArt.
I think I need to step back and take a good look at my life.
Take a deep breath. It's spiraling out of control.
We're more hurt than we appear The world will never know We both have tasted tears, my dear You're denying what I say Don't act like it's okay 'Cos it's not okay
(haha yes I like their music and for this song the words speak to me) Flattery - Aly & AJ
This is an S.O.S. Don't wanna secondguess, This is the bottom line It's true I gave my all for you, Now my heart's in two And I can't find the other half It's like I'm walking on broken glass, Better believe I bled It's a call I'll never get
Nearly a year ago this song would have been very applicable.
So this is where the story ends A conversation on IM Well I'm done That's it, Sorry for the miscommunication
And here's a quiz, because whatever I would blog now...is stuff that should not be posted on a blog. So I'm not gonna blog it.
Pick your birth month. - Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you. - Bold those that best apply to you.
Here's mine first, thoughts in italics:
OCTOBER: Understanding(I hope).Loves to chat.Loves those who love them. Loves to take things at the center (don't understand this one). Inner and physical beauty (hm. I don't know).Lies but doesn't pretend (isn't this contradictory though?).Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt(but keeps it inside)but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated(isn't everyone?).Does not care what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance(haha I wish man!). Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous (sometimes).Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair (not always, sadly).Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize.Hardworkign and productive. Smart, neaz and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.
FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.
APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.
MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-will and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautifully physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. loves traveling. Dislikes being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.
JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.
SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.
OCTOBER: Understanding. Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never gives up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
When I woke up I loved today. Not immediately, because I woke up with a stomachache (I was dreaming I couldn't find the toilet). But later when I went outside the world was striped with gold and misty with sunlight. It's misty again now, with a light rain.
I'm in love with a song (again xD)
And guess what, it's by a Singaporean band :O Awesome right?
This may sound crazy It probably is But could you tell me where True love is
Just point me in the right direction I swear I won't make a sound I'm looking for a neon sign It's what I haven't found
They say it's gone south Where all the good things go You'll see the flashing lights And you'll know you're home
And there's no fancy name for it No one knows who Aphrodite is It's only rain and rainbows And the promise of bliss When I get there It just is
I believe in love But it's probably not for me Romance, the chase, The attractive enigma No, it's not me
I thought I was there before But my heart got broken, you see I've heard it's not easy But you'll know you're home
And there's no fancy name for it No one knows who Aphrodite is It's only rain and rainbows And the promise of bliss When I get there It just is
All these questions, I've got to ask before I go If I never find it, will you let me know
And there's no fancy name for it No one knows who Aphrodite is It's only rain and rainbows And the promise of bliss When I get there, it just is
When I get there, it just is
I'm gonna switch to LJ soon. No, I'm not copying anyone/jumping on the bandwagon D< I have been intending to do it for a while.
November's coming up. November = National Novel Writing Month. Where people all around the world attempt to write a 50000 word long novel in 30 days! That's about 1600+ words per day!
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But seriously, NaNo is very fun. I participated last year (but only got up to around 10000+ words xDD) and I'm gonna do it again this year. Hmm I hafta think of a plot first.
I think fanfiction isn't allowed grr. Neither is copying and pasting the same word 50000 times. (:
Been blogsurfing. My mugging motivation sort of...faded away. -shrugs- Don't care much at this point.
Why does everyone seem so shallow all of a sudden? And happy? Why is everyone so happy?
Maybe I'm just being hypocritical.
No, I know I am. As well as being self-centred and hateful.
Am I really that different? Have I changed so much?
"I'm glad you are still the person I liked since P5"
I'm flattered, but I'm not that girl you remember, you know. I don't think you'd believe me if I told you.
I'm avoiding Facebook like hell (no, I do NOT have an account). It's way too addictive. Like drugs. And somehow I just don't like the stuff you do on there. I mean, like, fight your friends? How is that fun?
Been listening to a song over and over again. Wanhui wrote it in my notebook.
I'm No Good by Amy Winehouse. (Click above. Warning: the video is slightly explicit) Meet you downstairs in the bar and hurt, Your rolled up sleeves in your skull t-shirt, You say "What did you do with him today?", And sniffed me out like I was Tanqueray, 'Cause you're my fella my guy. Hand me your Stella and fly, By the time I'm out the door, You tear men down like Roger Moore.
I cheated myself, Like I knew I would, I told you I was trouble, You know that I'm no good.
Upstairs in bed with my ex boy, He's in a place but I can't get joy, Thinking on you in the final throes, This is when my buzzer goes, Run out to meet you, chips and pitta, You say, "when we're married", 'cause you're not bitter, "There'll be none of him no more," I cried for you on the kitchen floor.
I cheated myself, Like I knew I would, I told you I was trouble, You know that I'm no good.
Sweet reunion Jamaica and Spain, We're like how we were again, I'm in the tub, you on the seat, Lick your lips as I soap my feet, Then you notice likkle carpet burn, My stomach drops and my guts churn, You shrug and it's the worst, Who truly stuck the knife in first.
I cheated myself, Like I knew I would, I told you I was trouble, You know that I'm no good.
I think I don't trust God enough. Guilt's eating away at me.
I feel like posting some songs, so...hope the html doesn't get messed up.
Where'd You Go - Fort Minor This song makes me want to cry.
...where'd you go? I miss you so - seems like forever since you've been gone...
Move Along - The All American Rejects Good advice there (:
...and even when your hope is gone, move along, move along, just the way ya do...
All Good Things (Come to an End) - Nelly Furtado This song is disturbing, but I love it very much.
Flames to dust Lovers to friends Why must all good things come to an end?
Real Girl - Mutya Buena This is what we should all aspire to (:
I'll never pretend to be something I'm not You got what you see when you see what I got
Soulmate for Everyone - Natasha Bedingfield I like the chorus.
Who doesn't long for someone to hold Who knows how to love you without being told?
-------Tag Replies!
Litying - Letters written. Nothing to say here, then xD Rayne - I like the butter and garlic :DD Darrell - I'll try, I promise (: You too! Argh I dreamt about chinese pt last night. A semi-nightmare. Minyee - Oh, that's good. I'm really not scared of you, you know; it's just fun to pretend. Angie - YOU OWE ME TEN BUCKS LOL :D Binkeepinky - Oh ya! He's an "exceptionally gifted woman" xD Jason - Hey, haven't seen you for a...long time. Maybe you're right :\ Sabby - Ello! :D Draw draw draw!
What to say, Lord? It's You who gave me life and I Can't explain just how Much You mean to me now That You have saved me, Lord I give all that I am to You That everyday I can Be a light that shines Your name
Everyday, Lord, I'll Learn to stand upon Your word And I pray that I That I might come to know You more That You would guide me with every single step I take, that Everyday I can Be Your light unto the world
Everyday, it's You I live for Everyday, I'll follow after You Everyday, I'll walk with You, my Lord
Everyday, Lord, I'll Learn to stand upon Your word And I pray that I That I might come to know You more That You would guide me with every single step I take, that Everyday I can Be Your light unto the world
Everyday, it's You I live for Everyday, I'll follow after You Everyday, I'll walk with You, my Lord
It's You I live for, everyday It's You I live for, everyday It's You I live for, everyday It's You I live for, everyday
Everyday, it's You I live for Everyday, I'll follow after You Everyday, I'll walk with You, my Lord
Everyday, it's You I live for Everyday, I'll follow after You Everyday, I'll walk with You, my Lord
That's what I want to be like, really. I don't want to be just a Sunday Christian. God's there, every hour every minute every second, and i want to be aware of that. I want to let my every word and every action reflect God's will and His love - to be his light onto the world.
I really want to, but sometimes we get so caught up in everyday life - homework, lessons, friends. And there's temptation all around.
