He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
- Isiah 40: 29-31
Hehe I know this clock doesn't fit in with the blackwhitegrey theme...but I couldn't resist...
Wednesday, 24 October 2007
I've been reading up on urbandictionary.com (a website where users can submit definitions of words, so there are a lot of different points of view). It's very...educational.
I'm not an emo kid who cuts herself and has a black floppy fringe and tight jeans.
But I guess I'm emo in another sense, the internal sense.
Two definitions that struck me:
" "Emo Kids" are, to put it bluntly, constantly in the pursuit of the complete self-obliteration of any sort of perspective. Evident from the idolized paragons of emo culture(songs, that is) Emo kids dwell incessantly upon their emotions, usually of love, regret, heartbreak, and/or internal torment. To be frank, it seems that they simply cannot concentrate on anything other than themselves, while failing to realize that their dilemmas are not, in fact, very unique, and that everyone else in the world learns to deal with life...without forcing themselves to conform to some sickening subculture that only breeds self-imposed misery. "
" A term teens give to themselves when they feel that life has become pointless. What they don't realize is that when they say "No one understands me" there are hundreds of normal people that don't like life as much as the "emo" people do, and they just deal with it. Emo people are just hungry for attention, and they believe that this attention will get them somewhere. The irony is, you'd think that given how much they hate life, you never see an emo person actually kill themselves and get rid of it, rather, they continue posing and getting all the attention they can. "
That's what I've been doing, I think.
I lost my confidence/optimism but instead of bouncing back up I just let myself keep freefalling, didn't open my parachute. I'm just lucky I never hit terminal velocity.
There's so many people around me, trying to lift me up, but they can't help me if I don't help myself.
Neither can God.
I need to get back on my feet. Yeah, today's the day I leave it all behind. I've been an idiot since the _____ thing and other stuff happened but for the next year of my life...I'm gonna try and be a better person.
God, give me strength to carry it through.
I really really appreciate everything everyone's done for me. Thank you. Thank you so much.
And yes, I do read my tagboard, I just can't be bothered to reply (: Thanks for the tags. Reading them brings me joy.
I will admit, if you admit it It's harder than we both thought It's easier to fall apart Look where we are I can forgive it, I can't forget it You left me here with all these scars and you can't deny the hardest part I'm not in your arms
Spent the afternoon surfing YouTube and deviantArt.
I think I need to step back and take a good look at my life.
Take a deep breath. It's spiraling out of control.
We're more hurt than we appear The world will never know We both have tasted tears, my dear You're denying what I say Don't act like it's okay 'Cos it's not okay
(haha yes I like their music and for this song the words speak to me) Flattery - Aly & AJ
When I woke up I loved today. Not immediately, because I woke up with a stomachache (I was dreaming I couldn't find the toilet). But later when I went outside the world was striped with gold and misty with sunlight. It's misty again now, with a light rain.
I'm in love with a song (again xD)
And guess what, it's by a Singaporean band :O Awesome right?
This may sound crazy It probably is But could you tell me where True love is
Just point me in the right direction I swear I won't make a sound I'm looking for a neon sign It's what I haven't found
They say it's gone south Where all the good things go You'll see the flashing lights And you'll know you're home
And there's no fancy name for it No one knows who Aphrodite is It's only rain and rainbows And the promise of bliss When I get there It just is
I believe in love But it's probably not for me Romance, the chase, The attractive enigma No, it's not me
I thought I was there before But my heart got broken, you see I've heard it's not easy But you'll know you're home
And there's no fancy name for it No one knows who Aphrodite is It's only rain and rainbows And the promise of bliss When I get there It just is
All these questions, I've got to ask before I go If I never find it, will you let me know
And there's no fancy name for it No one knows who Aphrodite is It's only rain and rainbows And the promise of bliss When I get there, it just is
When I get there, it just is
I'm gonna switch to LJ soon. No, I'm not copying anyone/jumping on the bandwagon D< I have been intending to do it for a while.
November's coming up. November = National Novel Writing Month. Where people all around the world attempt to write a 50000 word long novel in 30 days! That's about 1600+ words per day!
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But seriously, NaNo is very fun. I participated last year (but only got up to around 10000+ words xDD) and I'm gonna do it again this year. Hmm I hafta think of a plot first.
I think fanfiction isn't allowed grr. Neither is copying and pasting the same word 50000 times. (:
We all talk too much and listen too little, sometimes; when there is no chatter and gossip echoing in our skulls we are faced bleakly with our own empty-headedness.
